But, oh, the sorrow, your eyes tell me so
I wish I could bear your extant torment
I wish it would be possible to give
What could purge the troubles – and make you beam

I cannot bear the gloom that surrounds you
It breaks my heart that it looms around you
Let God give me all that – that makes you sad
Let God give me all that – that takes your smile

My dearest, take my hand and feel the love
I wish it would be enough to give you
And bring your smiles back, and the laughter,
And the glimmer, beloved, in your eyes

Your beauty shines like a flower blooming
You are a dew drop from the cold evening
That illumines the morning, inspiring
But, beloved, your smile, what joy it brings!

too… and they harm…

Sometimes they sap my strength leaving not a trace
They give rise to misgivings creating a vacuum
And, too, I am as vulnerable as a wretch
Life’s unwarranted bias drowns the inner me

sure they do…

How could it be that I can glide amidst turmoil
It is as if I am superwoman but I
Am not superwoman, more a wondering soul
Trapped in this vacuum, unfeeling, helpless, feeble

’tis true, but untrue, too,

That I am trapped, because this is what I wanted
To feel super power, to be extra strong
Invulnerable, callous, unmindful, and cold
More like a zombie, it is as if I can’t feel

It is as if I could care less

Where is ageless youth,
the strength that it carries out?
Where is beauty and ardor,
the glory of life?

Will love cease to end
Without the zest and the zing?
What is substance born
from this life’s emptiness?

Words failed to speak
The hatred from verve and void
Entwined deep within
Wanting to loudly scream

It felt cold and numb
Perhaps from the night’s chill, oh no
The hug felt bitter,
distant, all of a sudden.

Warm fluids excreted from the sweetest
Acts of love that animates the senses
It brings the ‘you and me’ all together
Two souls that speak the same language

The aching bliss drowns me, enveloping
My faculties work en masse to the heights
Glorious bursts of ecstasy they produce
Sending us both to exhaustion

How I adore how we exchange ourselves
And share them with each other entirely
They fascinate me each time we make love
Warm, wonderful and aching, every time.

O, bigmouth dupe
Unfathomable
Stupidity
Ah, when will you learn?

You cringe, and you cry
Without sanity
Bellowing with might
Yet with no meaning

How can you be such
A fool not to grasp
The reason beyond
Each syllabic sound?

Brainless fool, that’s why
a senseless moron –
tell me then and how
you’ll teach right from wrong.

O pathethic fool!

… is because I can go on though wounded
and even savaged
torn into pieces
Yet I cling to the shred that was left.

… is because I know you can live with it
without me around
with many choices
Simply forgetting I ever happened.

… is for people to be happy ever
to breathe with laughter
oblivious to pain
Then I’ll be happy, too, because they are.

This is about a man and a woman who met each other in the company they both worked for. As time went by, they fell in love, or fell into the trap of forbidden love. The man was already married and with two kids. The woman was confronted one time along the highway with the wife. The wife saw them while everybody was waiting for the green light. She was in the other car. Though scandalized, the woman didn’t fight back and received all the insults hurled at her. After a few months, she broke up with the man, going with a much younger man. She told him she does not love him anymore.

Young days
That brought glory to her motherhood
Mischievous pranks that only you could render
A growing lad amidst the confusion
Perhaps ‘tis you
Alone that made her happy…

Being
A youth that inspires her to be a mom
That made her a mother unlike the yesteryears
You grew fondly with her favors
While you are pleased
Thinking that you are a god…

It came
Adulthood that befell unexpectedly
No – you don’t want it; you don’t need it, now
You are just reveling in the madness
This is not affordable
You cannot be responsible…

Years of
Carefree living, empty or shallow
Together with your accomplice, you refute reality
Replaced it with folly, ripened
Thirty calendar days
Into more foolishness…

What now?
Do you wish to stay this way?
Abandoned, hated, ignored, and still, sorrowed
Broken heart and spirit, denied
But you cannot escape
You got to face it…

(This is a poem uttered by Lord Aldeni. For he is searching for his beloved,the fair Treira Vande who has been lost in the lands east of the Windy Mountains.)

I search for the gift that I have lost
Afraid it might have turned to dust
I roam the broad lands, vast and great
My heart- afraid- that I’m too late

I yearn in my heart so greatly
To find it I shall be happy
Yet if lost forever, oh no!
My heart will lose remaining glow

I roam the earth from north to south
And I walk here and there and about
I roam the world from east to west
Even though I will get no long rest

Til I find this gift I search for
I shall endure darkness and gore
Through the heavens, I’ll fly the dove
All I’ll do – to find my lost love

You have grown, pleasing to the eyes;
Oh, a beautiful young woman -
I feel so proud of you, daughter!
Who could not feel the joy I have?
The little fair imp; tiny voice
replaced by the sweetness of youth.

But, hey, why the gloom? Something wrong?
A fight turned into a parting?
Tell me, please, tell me, my daughter,
I will always be here, list’ning
Waiting for you to pour it out,
We can talk anytime your time.

I ache seeing you impatient…
Bearing worry, feeling unsure,
I can bear anything but not
You in sadness, in doubt, in ire
I would always want the smile
I would always be by your side.

Taking interest, he tags alongside
Beaming at the task daring his ego
Tiptoes, skulking
Setting up a plan

Meanwhile, unsuspecting me spreads out
on top of the comfortable bunk bed

Felt so good, felt nice…

The fiend marched into my dream, in disguise
Someone I fantasize appeared before me
Smiley, handsome
Took my breath away

The impostor breathed with me his poison
Making me forget my everdearest

Why does’t feel so good?

Beaming again, he plods his feet with joy
Very sure of a prized catch he would bring
toward the annals
of terrible Hell

‘Tis just a slip of time and it popped
the terrifying sweetness of that flash

I feel nipping cold…

Another spirit came and rescued
my drowning self. With robust hands he pulled,
from the wintry pit
of sure oblivion

Then there was light all over, thawing out
The frost from the chill of the fiend’s poison

‘Twas my heart that summoned the spirit -
its enduring love for my beloved
Sure enough reason
to live and survive